I can always see myself as that little girl from the extermination years

I can feel her in myself incorrigibly

even now on the threshold of an old age

I remember only her

I identify with her character

although I try to distance everything else from myself

I can not forget

enormous in me is that eternal little girl

from those extermination years

she does not want to drown in the shadows of passing years

and different events

she is running with me throughout rime and all the roads

she does not allow me to pull myself together and to mature

constantly resuscitating the dark past

dictating, prompting, leading

I can't get free of her

I write about her, through her -

there is no end to her stories

no end

she will never disappear

never die

this little-big girl

old woman

from the extermination years