Halina Birenbaum
Sounds
of a
guilty
silence
Fruma
a name
long not mentioned
by chance scooped out
from the world of ashes
from the gap of memories
emaciated
transparent pale faced
curled up near me under a blanket
on a bunk in 27th block
two weeks after typhoid selection
speaking
absorbed in lovely scenes
about her home about mother
about delicacies which she once ate
I listen
warming myself with her body's warmth
imagining her home
in unknown Sosnowiec
about the fantastic delicacies
- though I was younger, I'd been longer in the camp
they dragged me to Birkenau
from the Warsaw ghetto
and from the gas chamber in Majdanek
we mutually supported each other
in the barrack
a noisy crowd of active prisoners
today there was a dense fog in Auschwitz
awful chill uncommon chance
the command - nobody works today
we can return to our bunks
put to sleep hunger and daydream about the happy past
all of sudden
a kapo at the door
turmoil grows tension
calling out numbers
we were lost in Fruma's tale
maybe they are taking somebody to work
or somebody is being punished
with so many women on the block
we don't pay attention
silence
after the next number is called
furious repeated calls
stopping at half sentence
silently
- jumps of the bunk
near the door she took off her clothes
covering herself with a gray rough blanket
chased in the group of chosen
to the gas
under the blanket
still warm from her body
sounds of touching voice about home
about mother, about mother's cooking
before the eyes behind the barrack
dense smoke from a huge chimney
she was 16 years old and had a delicate pale face
quiet human kindness in this hell on earth
and so much was left of her in me
forever
At the time when in the fall of 1943 was a typhoid epidemic there were often selections but there was no need to take off clothes till naked. They used to look at the tongue. A white tongue was a verdict for gas. On the described selection nobody was taken the gas chamber as usual, but they marked something near the number of an individual prisoners. After two weeks they called numbers of women during a blockade in camp and dragged them undressed to their death.